Depression is something that shows itself differently for everyone. There is no one person, or
one story, or one experience that can make someone universally understand truly how
depression alters the lives of those of us who suffer from it. I can’t make anyone understand
how it is for everyone, but I can tell you how it alters my life.
my depression manifests itself when it breaks through the barriers I have set with the help of
years of therapy and medication. But no one can understand me they just said: oh u are just a
teenager this is the depression of ur generation but they don’t have any idea about my pain
because it kills me inside i lost my three friends in an accident they were so close to me i
loved them very much i shared with them everything i felt so lonely and ask my self for
millions time why i am alive i should go with them because i am the one who deserves to die.
And after a long suffer i met a beautiful girl that she shows to me love care and everything
that i need. after 1 year i lost her because of cancer like imagine how unlucky i am, in that
moment i lost everything i love and i am still alive i can’t handle being alive. every morning i
woke up and i think why i am alive,i forgot how to live i felt useless af. I even quit school, i
can’t stop pain i can’t see the color life i see everything black,because anyone get close to
me he just die. I see my dead friends in my dream i was afraid to sleep then i see them in real
life like how i see a real person. So i decide to end my life without hurting my family so i told
them my story, because i tried everything that make people happy and i felt nothing i am
living the same pain the same feeling every day « different day same pain » i even i tattooed
my depression to proof that i can’t handle this much of pain and i tried to survive . I gave up i
tried to be alive for my family and i can’t do it.
